I work. A lot. Productive, I guess, but a little intellectually detached.
I love. I care. Truly. But most of the time I’m emotionally detached.

I walk… run… travel… Do numerous adventures. But I’m rooted helplessly on the spot more than I move around.

I always have something to say. I talk too much. But I mute when explaining myself, especially telling what I feel.

When I laugh, frown, smile, cry. Just take it as it is. It is all I could give anyway.
So don’t ask why, I’m sourced out of finding reasons.

I’m still having the hang of Christmas and New Year holidays. Longest vacation I had, so far, since i started to work. My 2008 started well and ended better. Looking forward for 2009 to be a greater year for me, hopefully!

I just turned Silver just when the world is welcoming the year 2009. I celebrated my birthday with my loved ones. I’m now half the age of my mum. It was actually a triple celebration – New Year, my birthday and my mum’s (hers was January 2).

I officially started my year today… working, of course, and I wanna start it right (ehem, I’ll try with all my might). So, for a start, I want to thank everybody who have been with me for the past year and the coming, as well. For all the greetings through texts, calls, emails, IMs, in person, etc. but most especially the LOVE and CARE which I hope I reciprocated. I pray for us all a beautiful and bountiful year ahead and for the coming years. God bless us all!

World Peace! hehe

XOXO
Rilag

Ika-25 ng Oktubre. Sabado. Half-day lang ang trabaho, adto mi ug Eden pagkatapos para makibertdey sa anak ng aming Engineer. Usually, tuwing umaakyat kami sa Eden, Dmax ang aming ride. Kaso nung hapong yun may nakaiskedyul na tripping. Gayunpaman, may pick-up o wala, umulan man o umaraw sugod pa rin sa site dahil sa handaan.

Sa NCCC Mall Maa Gate / Waiting Shed pasado alas dos ng hapon while waiting for our ride.

dispatser: South Villa?! South Villa!?

Rilag/Chang: (Umiling lang)

dispatser: Naa pa oh… sibugi lang! Asa diay mo?

Rilag/Chang: Dili.

dispatser: Taxi mo miga…? Taxi!!! Taxi!!!

Rilag/Chang: Dili lagi mi.

dispatser: Bus mo? BUS???

Rilag/Chang: Dili lagi nong… Dumptruck lang mi (nahihiya at natatawa).

dispatser: Aww. dumptruck!?! (tawa)

Rilag/Chang: Yawa, lagi mo ay. Seryoso mi ba (Tumawa na lang rin, kahit nakakaramdam na ng hiya).

dispatser:kuyawa ninyo miga ui! (Sabay tawag sa dumaan na dumptruck na namumulaklak ng tao ang hauler).

Rilag/Chang: Dili pud daw na ui!

(After few minutes the behemoth arrived, pero hindi pa rin kami tinigilan ng dispatser)

dispatser: Oh kana! (Sabay kaway kay Nong Narding – ang drayber ng trak – habang tumatawa).

Rilag/Chang: Buang jud ka ay! Kaulaw ba.(Natatawa pa rin na naiinis na nahihiya.)

Ah basta, sumakay na lang kami bago pa mabasa ng ulan. Haaay, kataw-anan.

Lingaw kaayo akoang first ride sa dumptruck oi. Dako-dako diay ang harap, abi nako three-seater lang.
Ilang months na rin nabili ng kumpanya ang trak, and I’ve seen it many times (alangan). Ug kami staff sa office, na-amaze. Walo mi including the driver plus a kid nasakto tanan.

***unta nasabtan ninyo, ek! asar!

I uploaded the video I made – series of pictures of me and my highschool barkada. I was again nostalgic watching it. Anyway, it brought me back to our highschool life from our escape-escape, BIO gardening, PMT aspirancy to JS Promenade. Which prompted me to download the songs we danced in our prom. It was not a typical cotillion de honor. If you have watched She’s All That starred by Rachael Leigh Cook, that’s where we got the idea.

The Way by Fastball – by Seniors
Achy Breaky Heart by BillyRay Cyrus– by Junior Boys
***I find them cute though a bit awkward dancing this, especially my highschool crush… ek! Haha
Rockafeller Skank by Fatboy Slim – by Junior Girls
***I was part of this dance, and we were actually wearing gowns.

It was fun! …and my highschool years!

Napakalalim ng iniisip, wala man lang kakurap-kurap, I heard Sir Drew saying. I was so absorbed inside the bubble I created while others are partying – people eating, talking and laughing and children playing. An officemate then followed up saying not to think about it. If I’m not morena at all, surely I’ll blend with my blouse on that instant and people would’ve mistaken me as one of the pink balloons surrounding the place.

I can feel my ears and cheeks burning. I wonder how many minutes long I left the world. Did I miss a lot of fun happening around? I just wonder. A lot of things running inside my head and matters unsettling within my heart. And I quite believe whatever the issue is, it was not premeditated. I never saw it coming. But I felt an appropriate level of happiness.

I’m not so sure though if I’ll do something about it. It’s utterly complicated. I would bet big time that it won’t make things any better too. At least just for the time being. It’ll just distort lovely moments that was painted. And could be misconstrued by some.

Err, I honestly, I’m confused. Nah, I’ll figure it out. Might not be soon, but I will. My heart will lead me there. Then I should not apologize. Then I’ll thank thee. Then I can blink and smile even if I’m staring at oblivion.

I called few friends and cousins last night, local and international (Thanks to ümobile!). People I missed. People I love. I’m so elated, some of them will come to visit Davao. To visit me. Soon. For quite a time I missed laughing, the real one. And I had a dose of it last night. Enough to keep me sane for the next few weeks. See you guys! =)

Freckles (English version of Samurai X’ Sobakasu) and Paano na Kaya (of Bugoy Bugayon)

– Weird title or singer. I don’t like it. I find it funny. It’s some kind of jologs. Either it’s because of the melody or lyrics. I usually like songs because of the latter.

– But yes, two of my songs for the moment. It goes with my momentarily insanity, though my moments are usually almost forever. If I have to reiterate my cheesiness and eww-ness, Lani Misalucha’s Reminisce is in my mp3. Hahaha Jologs talaga ang lekwat.

I caught a bug four days ago. Oblivious of disturbing sneezes and puffy eyes, I slept, still, four nights in a row either later or early. Late night or early morning. A routine with a little alcohol in it and a stick. Yes, one stick which worsen my condition – splitting headache, nasal congestion, whooping cough, sore throat, turgid eyes. Hah! Bring in the meds and tissues please.

And, oh, it’s Saturday…. in October. Saturday night plus Octoberfest minus common colds could be almost fun.

I’m a happy person. I am. But why are those entries below? Such a lonely place. Short and sad reads. Did I fail to remember Tìmon Y Pumba’s Hakuna Matata?

Put some brown in your life. It brings a solid wholesome feeling, a connection with natural earth and the stability. Thus, this blog theme. Self-effacing is my drama lately, as brown blends with the background. I go for convention. Tradition. Orderliness!?! Ooops! My office table is always like that…cluttered. And my bed… And my life. My favorite color is Brown.

I hit the sack almost 12 midnight last night. I woke up with a call at 2:30 am. It’s not an emergency, thank you. I started drifting back to sleep when I realize my younger brother is not on his bed. Yati, dili na nuon ko katulog ug balik. He is HE and is 19 and he’s just in Boyztrek. I stopped worrying. Or killing him. I locked the door and went back to sleep. My brother slept in sala. Dah! Serves him right.

How painful it could get when you decided not to see the most special person in your life anymore, or at least used to be, quite the same way before?

…nothing than forcing your heart not to beat anymore.