To infinity and beyond (Part 2) October 11, 2008

Napakalalim ng iniisip, wala man lang kakurap-kurap, I heard Sir Drew saying. I was so absorbed inside the bubble I created while others are partying – people eating, talking and laughing and children playing. An officemate then followed up saying not to think about it. If I’m not morena at all, surely I’ll blend with my blouse on that instant and people would’ve mistaken me as one of the pink balloons surrounding the place.

I can feel my ears and cheeks burning. I wonder how many minutes long I left the world. Did I miss a lot of fun happening around? I just wonder. A lot of things running inside my head and matters unsettling within my heart. And I quite believe whatever the issue is, it was not premeditated. I never saw it coming. But I felt an appropriate level of happiness.

I’m not so sure though if I’ll do something about it. It’s utterly complicated. I would bet big time that it won’t make things any better too. At least just for the time being. It’ll just distort lovely moments that was painted. And could be misconstrued by some.

Err, I honestly, I’m confused. Nah, I’ll figure it out. Might not be soon, but I will. My heart will lead me there. Then I should not apologize. Then I’ll thank thee. Then I can blink and smile even if I’m staring at oblivion.